I have been waking up earlier than our 6 am alarm almost everyday. Most of the time I lie quietly in bed and reflect on my life as it is right now. It’s really awesome! My life that is. I feel some tension in myself from the pace of this program. We have had one evaluation in swedish massage already. We start working on the public in clinic on April 20. We are learning to make Bach Flower Remedies and all about eating and prepearing Living Foods. And then there is Anatomy. WOW! The content and the work load are probably the most challenging subject for us right now but at the same time I am in awe of how this thing we call a body works. I mean how many muscles can if take to move your thumb? Ahh.. 8 to be exact and by Monday morning we will know their names and their origin/ insertion and just what they do. Learning about this incredible machine we each call home is so fantastic. We are our own Universe. Each bone, cell, muscle is it’s own microcosom that fits and works together. There is constant communication going on inside us. So never for a second, doubt how incredible you are—
Honestly this whole experience is mind blowing. It feels like we have always lived here and then in other ways it seems like only a day or two ago we were driving cross country. I was reading my journal early on Wednesday morning. Last fall was so intense for me with all the major changes going on. At some points I truly questioned my sanity. I had never felt so unsure about myself and where I was headed in my own personal journey. There were many moments where I was scared. My self doubt was almost strangling me. I guess that’s stuff we don’t grow out of. But as intense as this experience is at Massage school I know we are exactly where we need to be. For all my doubts last fall, I am more alive right now in 2012 than I have been in a very long time. I think I had forgotten the inner exhilaration of knowing you are living your life to the fullest. It is that feeling of being in sync with who you really are and not with any shoulds or supposed to’s.
I am so glad that we jumped off the edge of that cliff. We are soring to places unknown. As structured as I am on the inside, I am starting to enjoy the excitment of just relaxing into the Universe and free falling.
The faculty and staff at the school told us from day one that this would be an incredible personal journey. Wow, were they right. On top of learning massage, this process takes you somewhere inside you to places and feelings that you didn’t even know existed. That is another bolg. 🙂
So this morning my meditation is this blog. I am filled with gratitude for all the people and experiences that have brought me (us) to this place and this time. And there are many. You know for being so physically far away from everyone, it is amazing how connected I feel at the same time. And my girls, Dottie, Bobbie and Alice– you have never been so active in my heart and mind. I feel you.
So folks–Enjoy the full moon today, enjoy your day—-enjoy your life. Don’t postpone joy—feel gratitude and happiness about something incredible in your life—-today. You are incredible—if you doubt it just look down at your thumb. There’s a lot going on inside there. Imagine what is going on inside of that heart of yours—-Wow—–Wow—- Wow.
Peace and love—